ADHD Meds+New Fandom
Oct. 19th, 2022 12:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zaliachimeraSo... turns out that ADHD medication+new fandom obsession is a hell of a combination.
I have written 37 Destiny fics so far this year. For comparison, I wrote 38 Red vs Blue fics over 4 years. And most of them were significantly shorter than stuff I'm writing now. Apparently I am a person who can now just casually throw out a 12K one-shot.
One of the Destiny fics is a 10-part 38K multi-parter. I've never finished a multi-part fic before. This year, on Dreamwidth, I have put out over 200K words of fic. The most I've ever put out in a year before is 75K.
For my Magnus Archives Big Bang fic this year, the wordcount was minimum 20K. I had the fic completed several weeks before the deadline by just... writing a little bit each week. Normally I've got to about 1 week before deadline and realised I need to bang out 15K in a panic.
I am actually enjoying writing again. I hadn't realised how much it's felt like pulling teeth for... for years now. And now it just feels fun and good and relatively easy.
I still feel a bit guilty I am not using my newfound power of 'having an attention span' to write original stuff to get published, but uh... I'm just gonna take some time and enjoy having fun writing.
Also I'm kind of angry that I could apparently have been doing this the whole fucking time but I didn't get diagnosed and on medication until I was 36. How much easier would my A-levels and university have been if I'd had goddam medication?!?!
I have written 37 Destiny fics so far this year. For comparison, I wrote 38 Red vs Blue fics over 4 years. And most of them were significantly shorter than stuff I'm writing now. Apparently I am a person who can now just casually throw out a 12K one-shot.
One of the Destiny fics is a 10-part 38K multi-parter. I've never finished a multi-part fic before. This year, on Dreamwidth, I have put out over 200K words of fic. The most I've ever put out in a year before is 75K.
For my Magnus Archives Big Bang fic this year, the wordcount was minimum 20K. I had the fic completed several weeks before the deadline by just... writing a little bit each week. Normally I've got to about 1 week before deadline and realised I need to bang out 15K in a panic.
I am actually enjoying writing again. I hadn't realised how much it's felt like pulling teeth for... for years now. And now it just feels fun and good and relatively easy.
I still feel a bit guilty I am not using my newfound power of 'having an attention span' to write original stuff to get published, but uh... I'm just gonna take some time and enjoy having fun writing.
Also I'm kind of angry that I could apparently have been doing this the whole fucking time but I didn't get diagnosed and on medication until I was 36. How much easier would my A-levels and university have been if I'd had goddam medication?!?!
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Date: 2022-10-19 03:09 pm (UTC)I know what you mean: I was diagnosed and put on medication much later on than I'd care to admit for various things, and am so upset thinking about how much easier school and earlier jobs would have been if I'd just been properly diagnosed beforehand. It's frustrating, but I suppose it's best to think on what can be accomplished now more than that...though admittedly, that is very hard to do.
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Date: 2022-10-19 04:09 pm (UTC)Yes, absolutely! It has been a genuine pain in the arse getting diagnosed (and expensive because the NHS is garbage when it comes to adults with ADHD), and I think about my 20s and early 30s and how hopeless I felt a lot of the time because I knew I wasn't living up to my potential (and y'know, struggling to find work that wasn't hellishly insecure), and it's hard not to be a bit pissed off at how that could have gone differently.
But hey, I got here. Have a job I love now, and time and brainspace to do things!